True North

I've been contemplating on what to post about.  Should I begin with my history?  Should I write about the latest events in my life?  I have so much to tell.  I've written this blog in my head so many times, I didn't know which one to choose.  I was thinking about it this morning while I was getting ready for work.  After I finished my hair and makeup, I took one last look in the mirror.  I caught a smile on my face.  It kind of took me by surprise.  What on earth was I smiling about?  Then as soon as I had the thought, I realized it was because I like the person I saw in the mirror.

That hasn't always been the case.  I've been through a lot in my life, as most of us have.  Some of those events damaged  how I perceived myself.  I had the belief that I had no worth, I was unlovable and not valuable. I've learned in the last year, through therapy and self reflection, that I am valuable. 

Ever heard the saying "find your true North"?  It represents who you are as person.  It is respecting yourself and living your life in a manner that is true to you.  In a world of chaos, it helps you stay on track with your values, motivations, and your own leadership.  I've discovered that once I began to really love myself, my true North showed itself to me.  I am also amazed at all the places I find motivation and inspiration.  My eyes are open and my heart is healing.

Use your inner compass and find your true North.  Respect and love yourself.  It is the single greatest thing you can do.

I use to feel guilty for doing things for myself.  I felt that if I did not devote all of myself to my family, that I was neglecting them somehow.  Let me tell you, that is far from the truth.  Once I began to do little things for myself, to take care of me, I became a better person.  I am more patient with my children and they are better for it.  I am able to project the love I have inside and let people feel how special they are to me.  There are days when I still struggle with self-love, but I am on the journey.  That smile on my face was a long time coming... I have a smile in my heart too.

For those of you close to me, that have inspired me, motivated me, appreciated me... thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Namaste