Friday, December 11, 2015

Choosing Gratefulness

I woke up Monday morning still feeling tired.  When I went to bed Sunday night, my body hurt.  My feet were throbbing, my legs ached, my back hurt.  All this kept me from falling asleep right away.  I lay there thinking about how tired I am.  Not just physically, but mentally and emotionally.  Tired of working two jobs and still not getting the ends to meet.  Tired of not being able to do "extra" for my kids.  They don't get to go to Santa Land or ride the Polar Express.  They wear T-Shirts to bed, because they have outgrown their pajamas.  I lay there thinking about these things as I drift off to sleep. 

Come Monday morning, I woke up still tired but not so exhausted.  Monday is my favorite day.  I know, I'm weird.  I like to start Monday's with positive thoughts.  I start the day with the gym (usually), and then head to work.  It is my busiest day of the week, but that leaves me feeling productive.  When I accomplish everything I need to with good, positive thoughts it sets the tone for a good week.  Thus, I like Mondays.  I didn't want to spoil my Monday mantra and create a bad week for myself, so I decided to think of things in a different way.  This didn't just change my Monday, it has changed my entire week.  Hopefully, my month.

Yes, I work two jobs.  I'm also a Girl Scout troop leader.  I raise three children.  The list goes on.  BUT I am able to.  Thank God, I am able and capable to work two jobs.  There are so many people who are unemployed right now.  I might struggle, but how can I complain when there are so many who struggle more?  The kids and I have outgrown our home and it really needs repair.  However, when I tuck my babies in at night, they are safe and warm.  What else matters?  One of the bathtubs has a leak, so all four of us have to share a bathroom.  Why does that matter when I am able to bathe my kids in clean, warm water?  It doesn't.  I may not get to take my kids to all these events around town, but what I can do is sit in the floor with my littles and play a board game or a game of Uno.  Yes, I get to do all the yard work myself, all the house cleaning, all the repairs, etc.  At least I have a yard to rake, a house to clean, and a car to drive.  At least I am healthy enough to accomplish all this.

I could focus on the negative.  I could be bitter about not having more.  But WHY?  I am so blessed.  I have a home, I have an income, I have three healthy and happy children.  I also have the ability to change my mind.  I have the ability to view things differently.  That, my friends, is what matters.  My kids and I tell each other we love each other multiple times a day.  My teenager sits and really talks to me.  She tells me all the drama with her friends.  We talk about everything.  We laugh together and we cry together.  My two littles are growing so fast.  I want to make memories with them.  We make great memories playing together.  I get them in the kitchen to help with dinner.  We color.  We read.  I love every minute of it.  We may not have much and certainly not any extra, but we have enough.  We have time.  Taking my kids to serve food to the homeless on Thanksgiving was such a blessing.  Every time we drive by the building, they talk about it.  That is something. 

I'm choosing gratefulness.  I am so grateful for all that I have.  I'm thankful that I can do all that I do.  I'm thankful for life and for love. 

What do you choose?  Do you choose to be grateful?

A grateful heart is a beginning of greatness.  It is an expression of humility.  It is a foundation for the development of such virtues as prayer, faith, courage, contentment, happiness, love, and well-being. ~ James A. Faust

I'm grateful for always this moment, the now, no matter what form it takes. ~ Eckhart Tolle

I'm grateful to God for His bountiful gifts... He gave me courage and faith in myself. ~ Loretta Young

Be grateful for the home you have, knowing that at this moment, all you have is all you need. ~ Sarah Ban Breathnach
 
If you don't like something, change it.  If you can't change it, change your attitude. ~ Maya Angelou


Namaste


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